help thee, for thyself is dying

I am screwed.
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I didn't really have to post that statement, because my mood is still being unusually sunny, but it felt right.
Guess what?
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That was a good guess, but it's not quite right....
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Never mind, I take that back, you're a pretty bad guesser. >3<
Okay, here it is:
MYMOMFINALLYBOUGHTHOWTOTRAINYOURDRAGONIAM
SOHAPPYEVENTHOUGHISHOULDNTBE!!!!!!!!!!!
*pant, pant
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*coughs
*ahem
In other news, Eileen and I made up a (cynical) parody of "It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year."
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It's the worst possible time of the year
'Cause the animals are dying and bullets are flying
We all live in fear,
It's the worst possible time of the year....

It's the worst possible time of the year
With atomic bombs dropping and hearts that are stopping,
The end is quite near,
It's the worst possible time of the year!  :D
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Well, we only made up two verses, and I changed some stuff Eileen (sorry!)
But you must admit I am the more depressing!
So I will be asking a favor to anyone who happens to read this:
Could you write another verse? If it's any good, I'll add it to the post!

really, reeeeellly random

well.
um.
It seems that my blog is probably appearing a lot more on google searches because I wrote that bit about souls and the purpose of life yesterday in Questions,which I actually wrote last July, which is why it's under the 2011 July tab, which I just dicovered.
But since then, I've got 16 views, none of them long enough to count as an actual viewing of a post. So, today I'm going post random sentences on certain topics, and see how many accidental views I get. I think this is a good way to spend my time, don't you?

The Venus fly trap is carnivorous, of course, but it still relies on its roots, even if it's just to keep it firmly stuck to the ground.

Shakespeare had a certain period of his life in which no one knows about what he did or where he went, and that's saying something because they literally have an entire library dedicated to him.

Personally, I think the idea of breast implants is a little sickening; it's quite a bit shallow too: you might get more attention, but it's unwanted attention. They're more trouble than they're worth.

You know how snakes are considered to be bad and everything, right? I wonder if there's a way to turn that around. Well, I guess not, what with books like Harry Potter making them all evil and stuff. But I suppose it would get a lot more criticism if Ms. Rowling used butterflies instead...

Paranormal Activity 2 was an odd movie, don't you think? I never actually watched it myself, but from what I've seen and heard about it, you either loved it, or totally and completely hated it. I already know I'd hate it, having watched the first movie already, and that's why I didn't see that one.

Cami Cazi over and out

happy? ness?

Sorry I haven't been posting for a while... Math Midterms and the four project were making me depressed. Oh well, that's over, so I'll try to return to regular programming. :)

So, I feel like being whiny today.
Let's see...hmm.... what annoying things happened to me today?

Oh, of course! My mom yelled at me again! Something about sleeping in...
It kind of dampened down mood, though, I can tell you, what with the fact that it's Chinese New Year and all, you know?
Oh, crap. I have to pack my violin for TYS! Gotta go!

four hours later.....

So, sorry about that, I had to go play in the TY Symphony...
Anyway! so guess what! my mom just found out I'm skipping lunch! for the geo+alg2 parties!
and for those who know me, you can guess that she flipped out, cause we're only bringing fortune cookies cause she didn't want to bring spring rolls (they really are pretty expensive, you know), and is suddenly frantically coming up with crazy solutions, like cooking cauliflower for the class. Now, don't get me wrong, I love her cauliflower, and I'm sure everyone else would too, that is, if they could get past the way it looks....
Anyway, I get satisfaction from seeing her freak out like that, because it doesn't happen too often; it's only when she finds something out at the last minute.

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Wow,this is a long post. at least for me.

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Oh, yeah! I'm reobsessed with httyd; now through pictures and fan fics! you'd be shocked at how many httyd fanfic pages I have bookmarked. :)

This wasn't a very depressing post. I guess that's because I've been in an unusally good mood this weekend. I'm sure why, and It actually started to creep me out yesterday.
To anyone who reads this and happens to be a therapist or a psycologist, is there, like, a mental disease with these kind of symptoms?

"A cynic is a man who, when he smells flowers, looks around for a coffin." -H. L. Mencken

Cami Cazi over and out

christmas

Do you ever get the feeling that you just need to yell at someone? Like really, just scream every hateful thing you've ever heard at them till there's nothing left to say? Ok , that is way too dramatic. as you can see, i have learned a bit since my " help" post. but seriously: this holiday didn't have a lot of holiday cheer...unless you count getting a couple of DVD's....and a drawing set? we went to a restaurant... and well... we weren't really celebrating the joy and merriment of the holidays... we were just eating out, with the holidays as an excuse. 


what is the true meaning of the holidays?


Happy holidays, anyway. 
To those who bother to click the link above, please note Toothless... :)


K bye
PS: if you can't see the links, move your mouse over it and you'll be able to see it.

busyish?

Today I feel emotionally vulnerable. Thank goodness the day is almost over. Usually, if I feel hurt or angered I just retreat into the little shell of reclusiveness I've made for myself, and counterattack with some sarcasm against whoever inflicted the wound. But today, my shell has been rather thin and I'm finding it hard to keep everything tightly corked up. Add my lack of sleep in the past few days, which increases my irritability, and you have someone on the verge of screaming at anyone that tries to criticize them.
This has never happened before though, however many late-nighters I've pulled, and it worries me. I can't let my moodiness get in the way of the rest of my life, I've got to many things to do! Ok, so I don't really have much of a life... But still! I'll be wasting time trying to calm myself down.
And on that optimistic note, I have found that is blog is actually helping me! I can pour my soul out to people I don't know!! I'm being stalked! how awesome! I'm getting a lot more views than I'm expecting too, but I'm not exactly happy in knowing that people from Russia are (trying to) reading my posts. :|

K bye

More stats... and other stuff

Ok...I've checked my stats again.. and apparently, I'm popularish in both the US and Russia. Oh, And I have 102 views. That's somewhat disturbing. Does anyone realize this is a place for me to show the world my petty everyday problems? Русский народ, там, почему вы посмотрите на этот материал? I expect, like 20 views a month, at the very, very most. But then, I look, and I have 47 view in May, and that makes absolutely no sense. I don't even interesting write stuff on here.

Anyway, today was a good day. which probably means I shouldn't be on here right now, because I'm defeating the purpose of making this blog. Oh here comes my dear father....he seems to be terribly worked up about something...

2 minutes later
It appears that my dear mother cannot seem to make a decision as to where she is going to send me to school term after next. All of her friends and coworkers are tugging at her somewhat weak decision-making mind. One moment the Charter School, Green Hope the next, then Panther Creek, but never Enloe. I shall have to convince her that is the place to go.

K bye

Where do your parents want to send you?

I can't think of a good title right now, so.....turkeys!

Ahhhh, Thanksgiving! A time for.....wait, what are we supposed to do on thanksgiving again? give each other presents? no, that's Christmas... watch fireworks? no, that's during the summer....give each other cards? no.....that's valentine's day.....ah! I know!Give thanks to the world! of course! (I knew that all along).Anyway, I'm thankful for: How to Train Your Dragon(of course), my friends, my teachers, my parents, the library, hmmm......what else....oh, Harry Potter/J.K Rowling, the Internet, water, the planet Earth....ummm....chinchillas(cough cough), chemical reactions, and time. That's about it. What are you thankful for today, children?Comment belo--

Waaaaaiiiiiiiit a minute....that sounds waaaay too happy and enthusiastic. the guy up there sounds pretty dumb too: "what are we supposed to do on thanksgiving again?" so here's the real me. The other guy typing up there was just a stand-in, and somehow he's made it so I can't delete waht he's typed. Anyway...

Yes I am actually thankful(gasp) for all of the things listed above (double gasp). I have lots of homework i should be doing right now.We had turkey for lunch. It was good.....ummmmm.....k bye.

Oh yeah, and I'm not kidding about the commenting. What are you thankful for?

sad face

Before I took that 100 question test this morning at CCS, I didn't really think about how I feel after finishing it. I was hoping for some sort of relief.
But of course, I really just want scream my throat hoarse while banging my head on the wall til blood spurts out my ears. Pretty picture, right? I think it's because I was hoping after this, some of my worries would go away. and they haven't. None of them.  My life is the same as it was before. nothing momentous has happened. And that sucks. :(

Stats

You know I saw something interesting today. I got 47 views in May 2011. And they came from google searches. all from America. veeeeeeerrrrry interesting. In a bad way.

Stress

stress is an interesting thing. And no, It does not make you perform better. In fact, people have committed suicide because they had too much of it. personally, I think the less it matters to you, the less stress you'll have. Of course, that's all people have sometimes. But why does it matter so much to you that you get championship for your basketball team, the Quiz Bowl, an 100 on your next practice SAT test? Most of it will happen, run its course, and you'll have nothing more than aged a few months faster that you would have liked and get some sleep swindled from you.

Of course, I understand if it will change the entire course of your future, but if this isn't for real, then why worry so much? Why is it that the human beings of the first world must worry some much about things that do not matter so much in the grand scheme of things? we don't have that much of an impact on the universe, you know.