I am terrified of_______

I'll explain later.

1. adults that have any direct authority over me; namely my parents and teachers
2. spiders;the big hairy ones with multiple, beady eyes, especially if seen under a microscope
3. red LEDs in the darkness
4. myself
5. all state sight reading
6. FOUND by Margret Peterson Haddix
7. The Oaken Throne by Robin Jarvis
8. A slow painful death; usually deliberate torturing that involves the removal of essential organs

To the point of immobility.

Now for the explanations:

1. Now I don't know how that one really happened, but my theory is that one of the many painfully embarrassing memories I happened to create in elementary school, probably involving one of my teachers, scarred me for life. That and my mom or dad gave me the chewing out of my life. So now, I am at the point of shying away from any sort of adult that can directly tell me to do something and expect me to obey. I don't enjoy being their vicinity, but the fear of my parents isn't enough to prevent me from being defiant.
2. When I was in sixth grade, I took a microbiology elective, where we spent most of our time using a microscope. At one point in the quarter, someone found and caught a spider. Not a big one, mind you, but sufficiently hairy enough for me to keep my distance till they had it safely trapped between two Petri dishes. When someone had finally got it focused, most of the class crowded around for a look. when I finally found the courage to look into the eyepiece, I found eight shiny, black, and beady eyes placed on the top of something that resembled a brown dust bunny staring at me. Needless to say, I have never looked at a spider the same way again.
3. I've lots of late nights working on the computer of late, and when I've finished, I have to go downstairs to pack my bag for the next morning. Downstairs, there is a TV set with a DVD player that has two led lights positioned side by side. The stair case is is located so that we you prepare to go back up stairs, you see two red dots.....that looks like eyes... that are staring at you...nuff said.
4. This one kind of explains itself, but I'm terrified of ruining myself, whether it's being an idiot or engaging in a yelling match with my mom, point is, I'm going to be my most likely COD.
5. This one is kind of lame, but I've only auditioned once. That one time, I sight-read first, which I suck at. So I failed it. And I knew I was going to get an awful score before I even saw the numbers. I was depressed for a week, and I'm sure my parents were very grateful when I returned to my regular satirical self.
6. I don't remember the details very well, but I remember a bit about a Taser....that and I remember fearing to leave my bed after the darkness sets in.
7. See #6, except change the Taser bit to personified animals being skinned alive.
8. This requires no explantion.

"I have my standards. They may be low, but I have them." ~Bette Midler

The disturbed Night Fury will be returned to it's cell at the mental ward at this time. Thank you for your cooperation.

You know what?

Never mind. I value my life over theirs. The only reason Why I chose the other path originally was because you can't be punished for commiting suicide(but You can be If you don't succeed....)

If I could kill them, I would have years ago.

Title says it all.
I would have years ago, but I can't.
It's so vexing.

I have nothing to say today.

Seriously. Na-hing. Zero. Zilch. Na-da. Goose Eggs. Though how goose eggs relate to the word nothing I question...
so I 'm basically going to fill this page with random stuff.

I got my braces off. (insert Ron's voice from Potter puppet pals here) Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!
Not really.
My gums feel like I took some chewing gum and stuck it between my real gums and my lips.
On's the bright side (Waitaminute i'm supposed to be pessimistic. How did I find a bright side?)
*cough* Anyway, on the bright side, at least my lips can stay closed naturally now.
Here comes the retainer era! Yaaaaaaaaaaaay! Not.

My friend Sicheng recently got braces. Apparently they hurt. and she HATES them.
See? That's is how much she hates them. They deserve capitalization and italics.
and bold face. and underlining. and...oh wait, that's it.

Ok I'm done.

aoooowwwwwwgh gh gh gh ggh

Sorry about that. It's my frustrated sound effect for the week.

So.
I think I need to ask the Egyptian god Thoth to make five extra days like he did with Nut (go look it up; I ain't explainin'.), because I. NEED. MORE. TIME. Seriously though, I do.

I had a grand total of five hours of sleep last night, including the time I spent TRYING to fall asleep.
Honestly, I don't even know how I made through the day while not losing consciousness. I have homework I don't understand, and Enloe orchestra audition tomorrow which I hadn't time to practice today, and a project due.
I am worried about my homework, partially because I'm asian and it's an I have obligation to finish these things, and partially because I actually DO need to understand this stuff for the test.
I am utterly terrified of failing the audition, partially because of the actual auditioning bit and partially because I 'm afraid of my reaction afterward if I fail (you should have seen me after the All-state audition; I was a wreck for a week.).
I am stressed about my project because not only does my grade hang in the balance, but so does my partner's, whom which will be holding me accountable for doing my share of the work. Not to mention the coals I'll be raked over if my parents knew I had any intention of turning it in a day late.

So, that's all I'm worried about at the current time. I'm sure more will come to me later, after I'm out of this stress cloud.

"Deep down, I'm pretty superficial." ~Ava Gardener

The disturbed Night Fury will be returned to it's mental ward at this time. Thank you for your cooperation.

Hunger games (yeah that's right, I'm following that trend)

...
So I watched the movie (if you're hoping for spoilers, go away right now cause they ain't gonna show up)
It was good, but the first muttation made me spray popcorn on my shirt.
Oh yes, and the injured/burned flesh recreations were good.
Disgusting and disturbing, but very realistic.
and the depiction of the inhabitants of the Capitol:
Wicked :D

Apparently loads of people are complaining about how Rue is black.
wth!?

You fricking cried over her in the book and now you're complaining the movie didn't do the thing properly?! Seriously?

I get that Katniss kept comparing her to Prim, but that doesn't mean they have to look alike.
They were both young, vulnerable (Prim more that Rue), named after plants(hehe), and they were both pure of heart. I don't think that has much to do with ethnicity, now does it? That's what hurt Katniss so much after Rue was injured (cough cough), becuase she felt like she had failed her sister.

I actually imagined that Rue would be African American when I was reading it
BEFORE anyone was casted for the movie.
Just to give you some perspective, Amandla Stenberg haters.

Oh yes, to anyone who has seen this blog more than once, I am now a distubed Night fury.
That right. A mentally disturbed Night Fury.

What would you do with your share of the Mega-million jackpot if you'd won?

Oh yeas and:
Something We Asians Got
That does not mean I'm asian.
just wanted to see an interesting reaction.
"If a woman has to choose between catching a fly ball and saving an infant's life, she will choose to save the infant's life without even considering if there are men on base" ~Dave Barry

numbered

• The title inadequately describes this post.
• It should be bulleted
• But I'm too lazy to change it
• O woe is me
• ....
• I'm interested in the Tiger's Curse series
• And to any of you who know me
• don't look that up
• it will ruin my reputation forever
• Because it's so similar to the twilight saga it's ridiculous
• except the third book
• it only has three books so far
• I am waiting feverently for the foruth one along with countless others
• that are too cheap to buy it and have to wait for their local library to get a copy
• ...
• This is why i only have 3 followers on this thing.
• ....
• I should be working on a LA project right now
• it's fun b/c it involves music
• I'm an Owl city fan
• sort of
• only because you have to think to understand the meaning
• unlike songs that make no sense
• *coughpokerfacecough*
• or songs that are too easy to understand
• *coughfridaynightcough*
• .....
• Here's a nice message on harry potter from H-E-double-hockey-sticks itself!
• remember to read the author's note
• ........
• ok I'm done
• "I figure you have the same chance of winning the lottery whether you play or not." ~Fran Lebowitz
• Cami Cazi over and out

I hate_______

• My life
• This universe
• My existence
• My brain
• Emotion
• Her ability to cause pain
• Doubt
• The ability of attachment
• My__________(fill in the blank)

You get the idea.

Oh, yes, something interesting... page views a grand total of 180! that's the measure of a straight angle!
*sai
I am so random.

"It's not that I'm afraid of dying; I just don't want to be there when it happens." ~Woody Allen

belarghhh

My life is the sort that induces depressive behaviors:

• I hate this planet.
• I'm in a controlled anger sort of mood right now.
• I really need to kill something right now. Or at least knock someone unconscious with a frying pan.
• (kudos if you recognized the Tangled reference)
• Allow me to repeat myself: I hate this planet.
• school is hindering.
• I hate this planet.
• Heck, I hate this universe!
• I don't like this universe anymore
• My brain sucks.

Seven Crappy Hours Of Our Lives
Sorry if you don't get it.
Not Really.

"The quickest way to a man's heart is through his chest." ~Roseanne Barr
Cami Cazi over and out

hi

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so....
...
#$%&*%$%#@#&*@*$@%$*@#$%&!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*pant,pant
...
sorry about that. Please excuse that outburst and forget it ever happened.
...
Is there no reasoning with her!!!! I just feel like ranting about anything random because I'm tired and moody and I want to give up on something and I need a little empathy for being an idiot but noooo...
she decides to take offense because it will (eventually) affect every one's sleep schedule (this is a school that starts at 9, after all >.>) and starts talking, not directly at me but saying all the things she would say to me to her invisible best friend that sits next to her at all times for everything she does, which makes it worse, in a way.
At that point, I gave the effort up for lost and just sat back for the ride. Not that it was a fun one. This is usually how our arguments-if you could call it that-deteriorates. I attempt to crawl out of the cesspool I got stuck in, she creates a explosion which scares me back inside, and we start all over again in a few days.
...................................................................................................................................
And she thinks I'm sexist! She's giving my brother permission to hurt me! why? because she says he needs to learn to "man up"! that's why! And also, she can't seem to accept that my studying habits are different from that of my brother. I can't just look at the words for two minutes, be tested on them, and go back and have a look at them agian! That just doesn't work for me! but nooo, she has to have me do it like that anyway. DX

Ok, I'm done, see you later.
Cami Cazi over and out